i just wanted to say how wonderful it was today when i commited to God the plans/desires of my heart how he took care of everything. sometimes it's hard to remember that God is and should be the reason why i do what i do. i'm glad he teaches and reteaches me these things all the time!

hard drive

today i tried to turn on the computer and was really concerned i had done something bad yesterday when trying to create more storage space. it wouldn't start. it wouldn't move past the black screen with a LOT of initials and symbols i didn't understand.

i called the IT guy at WVU b/c they know the computer best and he guided me through troubleshooting the problem. "hit F12, read the screen, look for HD, turn it off, flip it over, on the bottom left there should be your hard drive, wiggle it a little and firmly secure it in its spot."

the screw holding the hard drive in is MISSING!

it reminded me of my faith. i can't even power up if my hard drive is loose. what or WHO is my hard drive? is it me? or is God located at the center of my heart? in order to function properly it is CRITICAL for God to have his right place in my heart. i can claim verses like "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." but if the screw is missing, if my fellowship with God is non-existent, then i'm not powered by him, i'm powered by me. God can be present in my heart and mind, but just like the hard drive if he is not directly secured in the proper position as KING and FATHER to be Lord of my heart then I WON'T WORK!!!! and then i'm left to wonder, "what did i do to screw it up? why isn't this LIFE working for me?!" fortunately, like the IT guy, there are seasoned believers at my fingertips who can help guide me to the One that makes it all work. they help me put the screw back in, reconnect with God and begin to feel the joy of living for God.